I'll post this here as you check this account more. Hmm. Well I’m sorry I can’t read minds. I did not know you wanted a reply. As for your drawing, I have a human art block, and I can’t draw them well at the moment. I really, really hate my art and I’m frustrated. I was also waiting for your birthday, so I could improve and make it one of my best pieces, I was hoping that would make you happy. I’m sorry I’m also learning to drive and my SAT tests that will show up in college are going to be here soon. I also need to get a job so I can pay for the Driving school. My mother beats me every weekend if I don’t go look for a job. I’ve filled out many, many applications…It seems the only way to get a job right now is through recommendations..But I don't have many childhood friends because my mom, and when i told her this she said everything is my fault and I cannot blame others. My mother says if I don’t pass the driving written test, that she’ll beat the shit out of me. That’s not even everything my mom’s done to me. Recently, I cut my hair. My sister took me to go find a job, and there was a nail/hair place nearby, while she got a pedicure I wanted to cut my hair. The next day my mom saw my hair, and that night she beat me with a wooden backscratcher and a hangar because she didn’t like my hair. She said I look like a lesbian and I told her that that’s only HER opinion. She slapped me and said that “as long as I live under her house I have to follow her rules” and she even threatened to hurt my beloved sister. All I could do was stay curled in a ball while she hit me and wait until she left the room to call my sister to warn her about coming home. I love my sister much more than her and Im gald nothing happened to her My “friends” on Deviantart. I believe you are the only true one. I’ve only told 3 people in my entire life about my problems. Through my eyes, everyone is influenced by how great your art is, or how many pageviews you have here... When they surpass you, they no longer care about you. I made an account for only my true close friends because I'm tired of not being enough for some friends that suddenly and no longer look at me as a worthy friend because my art is not good. As for me being “an awful person” I’m sorry, my mother tried to drown me when I was 7 and she beats me and still does; The emotional abuse is worse. Every day she tells me I’m shit, I’m worthless, and that she should have had the abortion, after a childhood of hearing it, I’ve started believing it. She often threatens me with stuff like “I’m going to cut your fingers off”, “I gave birth to you, I have the right to kill you” sometimes when I was little she would even take me for a drive to the freeway and tell me to get out of the car, I was always a scared frantic child begging for mercy from mother but that’s no excuse. As for those hidden comments, I’ve unhidden all them for you. You’ll be able to see that the only comment that showed any concern for me was yours, I did not hide them to purposely shun any friends that care for me, you were the only one that posted anything like that. If you hate me, I don’t mind. I hate me too. I almost committed suicide a couple of times, like on a rainy day I was going to climb the roof, my friend Alex was a witness and her mom told me to get down. However now I’m looking to become a psychiatrist, so I can help other people.